Those Days that Pearls visited with their father and stayed with him were some eof the loneliest days she had. Before having her family she never really knew the closeness she was missing. She treasured her children and her safety in being vulnerable with them. Alone she had her thoughts of her past and the results of all those little heart aches was an impermiable shell that no one could penetrate. Inside she ached outwardly she pushed away attention never trusting the motives of the people around her. Accepting her fate of being alone without a mate, accepting the loneliness and regretting the cosequences of fate that led to an unhealaed heart. Even the hope of the prince charming forever placed upon the storybook shelf. Disollusioned and tormented she would lay in bed and cry gripping for the sun to rise.